Want or Need?

I want to be sexy but I need to be comfortable.
I want to be free but I need some stability.
I want to be skinny but I need to be realistic.
I want to be inspired but I need to be focused.
I want to be loved but I need to be understood.
I want to love but I need to know why?

I've wanted many things, most of which my heart desired.
My sister warned me about not putting my heart on my sleeve all the time, but my mind has never denied anything my heart has wanted.

My mind has made little say when it came to what my heart wanted - an occasional warning or seed of doubt. I've followed it so much that even my mind doesn't bother to argue anymore. It's used to it and almost shuts off.

Heart: Ooooh, I want this, I want this! This will make me happy, this is what I've been looking for all my life!
Mind: Alright, whatever. Be happy.
Heart: Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! <3 <3 <3

Now that I've conditioned my mind to be so passive, I'm not sure how to reactivate it again. I ask myself "Why?" and my mind answers "Just because!"

Come back mind, I need you in this thought process and decision-making.

Have you ever felt the same way too?